stressful day

For those of you that do not know, I have social anxiety. Today, I'm sitting in the dr office for my 3 month check up. There are too many people in the waiting area, they are running behind (as usual, but he is a good dr, so I really don't mind). Did I mention there are too many people in the waiting area? I start stressing, blood pressure is going up. So after 1 1/2 hours, they call me back and yep, my bp is up. I go into the other waiting room, the room is full. More stressing, more anxiety. Finally, 40 minutes later, they call me back to the room. The dr says, Mary, your bp is up. I love this man, but umm, yes, I have social anxiety, my bp is VERY elevated. He apologized for the amount of people, but it really wasn't a problem, just an issue I have and can't control completely. I would rather him be thorough and be a good dr, than rush us through to get everyone out faster. I sucked it up and made it through. I wasn't in my car 15 minutes and my face was no longer flushed and I was over it.. over it! I hate these episodes of stress and fear. What am I afraid of? Why do I get so uncomfortable around people? I have always thought myself to be a nice friendly person, so why do I have such issues? It's annoying, really. I do not want meds, I want to deal with it on my own.. but sometimes I can't. On a good note, he did give me an rx for meds for rosacea. Something I have had for several years and other dr's brushed me off. Love this man, even though I stress in his office. :)

Also, my dog pepper is having issues with his leg. The vet said it could either be his knee or hip. He is in bad shape. He cried all day yesterday until his rimadyl kicked in. He is still limping and is scaring me pretty bad. If you pray, please keep my baby Pepper in your prayers. He's a sweetheart and I hate that he feels so bad.